I'm still kinda new to this forum, so I havent gotten a chance to actually talk to lots of people on this forum, but I have to say please don't rehome your babies. I've read lots of your threads and I can tell you really love your babies and they love you. They wouldn't know what to do without you. I know you've had some hard times, but you have to stay strong. Look at little Natalie, shes staying strong and I bet its probably for you and little Gracie.
Your babies love you and I know you love them.