I just checked her flight status and as I am writing this (with teary eyes, nonetheless), little tiny Gracie is in the air about an hour away from Houston. I was looking at the little airplane icon to show you on the map where the plane is and I got so incredibly sad that I shipped her off all alone and probably so nervous and scared....I am so sad for her at this VERY minute as her ears are popping and she may be woozy, but I am relieved to know that in like 240 minutes she will be in the homes of her mommy who will love and ADORE her forever, so I guess a few hours of pure confusion and fear are going to hopefully be quickly forgotten! I was okay with leaving her when we were all finished with the paperwork and all that stuff- I was feeling strong and together as I knew in my heart that Dena is going to be her best mommy ever, then my 3.5yr old daugher (who always said that Gracie was HER dog- she called her "my Gracie dog") looked at me with tear-filled eyes and said "Mommy, we can't just leave her, I love her and she needs to come with me....my Gracie dog wants to come home" OH MY GOSH- you can imagine the overwhelming sense of guilt and sadness I felt at that moment. We just walked away, turning around to see her tiny little nose and eyes watching us leave, wondering why this one time she couldn't come too. So, I tried to hold back my tears wanting to burst out and I told my daughter that she IS going home and that we did our job to make her into the sweetheart that she is and because we loved her so much she is going to make her new mommy the proudest ever. I told her we would be able to visit her on the computer, she seemed to think that was really neat and she has not mentioned her since... What a sad night for us. I will be waiting with my phone by my side waiting to here that she is home, then and only then will I be able to sleep (so Dena, if you are reading this....PLEASE call me when you get her!!!!) Okay, so enough of my sadness venting (though I feel better now) YAY! Gracie is on her way home!!!!!!! Home SWEET home!!!!!! We love you sweet gracie and can't wait to see your little face again! (here come the tears of happiness, mixed with the ones that will miss her so much) |