Thank you so much for your very kind note.It really did help!! I liked what you said about him not having or knowing unconditional love and that gave me some peace because I guess I never thought of it that way .I should feel sorry for him and he also has to live with the guilt.I moved and it hurt that he never made any attempt to apologize and that stinks but like ya said I can only control me and my thoughts and how I handle things.I know it is only hurting me.
It comes on stronger around holidays and bday etc and Halloween for some reason because my fiance' and I kinda joked that we could dress up in masks and just punch him once and maybe we'd feel better..Dont take that the wrong way, we wouldnt hurt anyone but we were both in so much pain and I was in shock watching the car go over him as I called his name..etc etc.
So it just instinctly wanted to put some pain on him.
I will go to a park one of these days or the woods and scream as hard as I can and then ask God to put some forgiveness in me.
Im so sorry about your baby too,Gosh that is so terrible.I am so paranoid with my new Yorkie now but loving her to pieces.Dezzy is buried at my new home(my fiance's house) under a tree he loved. God Bless you
thanks again.