bchgirl thank you
angie we just found out in early august, i dont know what kind of chemo just that its the iv kind..thats good that your mom is able to still work..you helped me understand some more on it. i was thinking your immune system was virtually gone once you started the chemo
wow i couldnt believe her hair feel out in only a week and half thats fast..my mom is very upbeat about it all. she is planning christmas, i actually volunteered to do thanksgiving and forgot how pregnant i will be then..lol..almost 9 months by the time thanksgiving gets here.
shes doing really well with it all...my dad is usually fine...but tongiht when i took my son over there to go trick or treating my dad is like "did you hear the side effects? death is a side effect" talk about a blow to me! i could have lived with not hearing that. now im home and really down about it. i cant sleep..i go to bed and start crying so i get back up..i dont want to show anyone what a cry baby i am,,gosh when mom first mention it was cancer i bawled like a baby and couldnt control it..i felt so bad doing that infront of her...then when she called and told me chemo..i had to rush her off the phone so i wouldnt cry on her then..and tonight im taking it hard.
im scared to death of losing my moma.
im scared to see her sick, to see her lose her hair, appetitie, nails, etc... i ve been reading too much on line.
im not very strong and i dont know what emotions i can control around her anymore...im scared to hug her because i dont know if i can let go or not cry...
i guess im just having a bad night...i dont want to wake up my husband he has gotta get up so early for work.. |