Your post has me in tears.
Honey my Mom has been gone 4 /1/2 years , my Dad passed 2 years ago this coming New years day and I haven't been the same since. I will lash out,it seems like it is coming out of the blue.
I often say my soul died with them. I sometimes feel like Im going to move pass it,that is short lived.I too have had fleeting thoughts of suicide bit would never do that too my family.
I try to stay busy and my sewing/crafting helps me alot and my furbutts.
Some people don't understand the loss we feel,they think you grieve for a month then it is done.Maybe they don't love like we do,I don't know.
There is not a hour that goes by that Im not saddned by thier passing.I miss them so.
Maybe talking to someone will help,greive support groups are free and are in almost every city,I think it helps knowing others feel the same as us.
Hugs,Debi |