Tammy, I am so sorry to hear this
I really know how hard it is to lose family members. While most people my age (21) haven't had much loss in their life, I have (mostly from cancer), and it is so difficult. I lost my grandma at the age of 94 last February, and even though I know she lived a great life with 12 children, 36 grandchildren, and 70+ great-grandchildren, it was so hard saying good-bye to her.
Your post really touched me, and I very rarely cry at posts on YT, but the tears are rolling now. I am so sorry you all are going through this, and I will be praying for you and your family to have strength through these times.