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last year on sept 11th i had a baby that i sat for die at my house and a few months after that i got lacey. she has helped me get through everything and still is. i think i need her more then she needs me most of the time. its been just over a year and i still have my days when i just cant believe that happened. ( he died from pulminary adema and strept) i dont know if i will ever get over the baby dieing and finding him dead, but i do know i love lacey for helping me cope with it. i really dont want to go bk on all the meds that helped me to not freak out or cry all the time because i was like a zombie, although it was kind of nice because it didnt hurt as much when i was on them. i just have to just keep telling myself hug the dogs more and they will make it better someday. i am also glad to know that there are people in here that i can ramble to about this, even just typing about it kinda helps me get through it. please bear with me again while i have a small melt down grrrr.