Well more time has passed and I'm still trying to get through a day with more positive thoughts. Its very hard. I came here late tonight as I have not been able to sleep well the past few days. I wait till my body is so tired that it just falls asleep on its own, I can't close my own eyes cause when i do i see the most graphic images that are like torcher for me. I'm sitting here in tears because I keep replaying what happened to Zoey in my head, and seeing it happen. I feel like I'm going to be haunted forever with this image. Its the most painful thought and feeling I've ever experienced in 24 yrs. I feel like I failed Zoey and did not protect her enough, I feel like I let her die and it was my fault that I did not protect her enough to prevent what happened. I feel like I caused this happy joyful beautiful and precious sweetheart so much pain, the most tramatic sudden death a dog can have. I feel so much pain for her and I feel so bad.
I'm so sorry for venting like this. But I feel I can come to all of you for this support to help me get through it.
I couldnt give Zoey a full life and I feel like a terrible person for letting such a young baby die the way she did.
