This is the first time I've come here. I can't read the poems or anything that might bring on the tears. I can't stand it. It was my fault for not going looking for Matty when I first missed her. If I had she wouldn't have died then. If it was her time, something might have happened later. But it was my carelessness that caused her death at that time. I don't know if fate works the same way with animals as it does with humans. They don't think and plan for tomorrow. I feel guilty enough without thinking that her life would have done something special for someone. Other than love, I mean. |