Hi Vee, so glad your doing some posting...I'm not going to tell you how strong or brave you are, after all, what choice do we have when these things happen....
With the rawness still there it's perfectly understandable to be feeling everything but strong....it's been nothing but a very long month of pain for you.. It must be of some relief that your son is able to come and help out...
Always know.... we here feel your pain in our hearts....