Hi V, loosing someone close is very hard, I loss my grandmother and she was like a mom to me, only time will tell is been three years and I still miss her very much I feel guilty too because I was not there for her physical ( she was in another country) when she need me, and when she died either, my twin take care of her

and my mom, everything was so fast for her, but praying to God and tell him how I feel, have help me a lot, I will be praying for you to, he is the only who can heal our soul, minds