V, don't torture yourself with what 'ifs' you can do nothing about. We have hospice here in the building every other month for someone and they only come when someone has two or three more weeks to live. They are angels and I remember how they helped you with some of the funeral arrangements. Your heart is broken and the 'good-by' is not necessary when people love each other.....your good by was being there with him every day. Gal, we are all praying that it gets easier for you and those of us that have been through it know there is no pain like that pain in the world. |