Hi everyone.....again - thank you so VERY Much for all the kind wishes and cards etc - you have no idea how much it means to me. I'm kind of surprised at myself that I'm taking this as hard as I am - I thought I was stronger than I seem to be and am having the hardest time with my emotions - can't seem to talk without breaking down. Everything is just so empty now and lonely - no one will EVER love my girls like he did and they miss him so much too.
The funeral is this Saturday and my good friend Jamie will be a wonderful substitute mom to them until I return and I trust her completely - she has 2 yorkies herself and Chanel and her oldest are almost related so that's a good thing. I think I packed more for the girls than I did for me for my trip.
My husband was a good good man and the memories just keep flooding my emotions - I'd take a sick husband anytime over a gone one. I think I said it before - CHERISH those you love - even though mine was sick - I NEVER NEVER expected him to go the way he did that night - I can't seem to get it in my head that is just wasn't his time yet but God called him home ....and I have to learn to accept it. I just don't know how to
If anyone has advise on how to stop all this crying I'd apprecitate it - I've never cried this much in my entire life....still can't eat or sleep and stop obsessing. I want to be strong and just feel so weak ... even writing this I'm losing it
On the upside - you all are THE BEST !!!!!! I miss posting and miss talking to so many of you and hope everyones yorkies are happy and healthy -
Thank you again so so much for everything - If I could put into words what you all did with the beautiful cards and donations (they were a HUGE HUGE help - more than you know) I will ....but for now - I've been trying to answer pm's and do a few a day but getting on the computer lately is really hard - the tears just won't stop.
I miss him so much ....it's very lonely in my house now and I just thank God for friends like you all and my girls. BIG HUGS and love you all ! I really mean that - the calls - cards and pm's have been so appreciated I just can't thank you all enough for your care and concern. I DO miss you - and thank you again