 Ken
Ken. This is the first I've been on YT in awhile. First let me say to you that I'm sorry for your baby. Nothing (animal or human) should have suffer as your baby is suffering. I understand your precament that you are in with no money/no job and I understand your love for you Yorkie.
I'd like to share with you what we went through three weeks Friday. Our little boy Newman had cancer in his foot pad and it was operated on and a few months later returned very aggressively. We spoke to the vet about amputation of his leg, and agreed that if the tests came back clean we would proceed to have his leg amputated. Well, the news wasn't good and the tests showed a mass in his liver. My baby suffered everyday with his foot. Had to keep it wrapped and as each day passed that we waited for his tests to all be completed, I could see him decline (Like your girl is). They called us on a Thursday and told us the bad news about his liver. We did the hardest thing to do. We took him that very next morning and put him at peace. He went very peacefully, just a shot and fell asleep in our arms and we all cried like babies, including my husband a big retired NY Cop who is tough as nails. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to love your baby enough to let her go when she's suffering.
The day after we had to put Newman down, my mom went in the hospital. She's been critically ill for years. This was on a Saturday, on Sunday I had to do another hard thing and tell the doctor no more. She was able to tell me that she was tired and had enough for that I was glad. Animals can't do that. They can't speak to us so we have to watch them and know when it's time and to love them enough to let them go.
It's been two weeks since she's said she's had enough, and this past Friday Hospice took over and is monitoring her closely, keeping her comfortable. She's been throwing up the past two days and it's hard to watch. She doesn't have long, but each day is misery to her and that's with the sedatives, pain meds etc. I wish that I could do for my mom what I was able to do for Newman and that is let her go peacefully, as that was her wish.
I'm not trying to make you feel bad. Hell, I feel bad. I had always promised my mom that she'd never die in a nursing home and in the end I couldn't keep that promise. I'm not rich, my parents didn't have money and plain and simple I could not afford to hire 24 hour care so she could be home. What I'm trying to say is we ALL do the best we can do and sometimes decisions we HAVE to make hurt but are in the best interest of those we love. It hurts but putting your baby to sleep when she is suffering so is the kindest thing you can do for her.
I wish the best for you, your family and especially your little Yorkie girl.
Elaine |