Villette it's so nice to see you back. I can totally relate to how you are feeling right now, I think. I lost my baby sister last year and now, when I think back on those days and weeks following, it just all seems like a dream. The memories are not crisp and clear like most memories, it's all a fog from the time the doctors said there was nothing more to do until she passed away a week later and even after that for a couple of months. I didn't realize how much I was going thru life just keeping busy. It is a little easier now although I still miss her like crazy. It's like a yearning to see her and talk to her and I still have things happen and I think, I have to call Krissy and tell her and then I realize I can't. I also had so many dreams about her. Dreams like she was still alive and I would wake up crying. And sometimes I had those dreams and felt like she was there with me. Like there was an invisible thread and I could talk to her in the dreams. I like to think I could and that does give me comfort. And I do think that her life is a reminder to us all that life is short and we should never ever take it for granted. I know she would not have traded her life for anything even if it did only last 32 years. I think it was a full and mostly happy life and for that I am grateful. I wish I could offer you the perfect words that would make everything better but I haven't found them yet so I just will wish you the best and take care. Theresa |