 Thank You All.
I posted this a a respond in my original thread but in case it's missed, I wanted to repost it separately. I'm so grateful for Yorkie Talk and all the wonderful people I have met here. Elaine.
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I'm sorry, that I haven't responded here on YT. I've been reading everyones kind words but somehow, just could not bring myself to post. My boys are doing better. Kids are resiliant, but I just cannot seem to get that day out of my head. I keep wondering if I did this too early. Could I have waited and had him with me longer. I know deep in my heart that the answer is that this had to be done as he was only getting worse and there was no cure, but the memory of that day just haunts me.
We have our girls and I'm so thankful for that, but yet it seems so quiet and lonely here without him. The same barking that would drive us nuts at times, is the barking we miss so very much. My girls are all doing well, all but Bella who seems very depressed. Newman was almost 7 years old when we brought Bella home, prior to that he was our only. Bella was just a tiny sick pup at 5 weeks of age, she's almost 4 now. Mrs. McBitchy is what we called her b.c. as 6pm approached the witching hour started. She would pick small battles with poor Mr. Newman. Just growl at him and he was such a wimp. LOL. They never fought, I think it was more of a game she would play. She hasn't done any of this since Newman has left us. She's mostly just been laying where he did and just picking on her food. The others seem alright. Just Miss Bella seems so lost.
Jersey is a week shy of 6 months now. Hubby and the boys brought her home for me shortly after Newman was diagnosed with cancer. I had been so depressed and at the time we thought we'd have about a year with him. She was my Mother's Day gift and I'm so thankful for her. Jersey was spayed a couple of weeks ago and was due this week to have her stitches removed. And, yesterday, we had to take Bella in for her teeth cleaning. It was such a rough day to have to go back there.
We had Newman individually cremated, and I think I'll feel a sense of relief when he is returned to us. I find comfort in knowing that he'll be home with me soon.
Thank you all again, for all your wonderful notes. Sophie Rose. Thank you, you have been wonderful. As soon as I"m able I'll drop a note to you.
Elaine |