Change is hard----------- but without it you can not move on and clearly you are more than ready to move on.
I will not bore you with my long sad man tale------ but if I could start over at 39 with an eleven year old son and find happiness~~~~~~~~~~~~
anyone can!
My only word of advice:
Never discount someone because of age or distance.
Hubster is 9 1/2 years younger than I am and in London when we found each other.