Awww, I feel so bad for you! I know the feeling. It takes a long time to find just the PERFECT one that fits you and feels so familiar to you...same with pianos, unfortunately (they're harder to keep replacing
)....probably with any muscial instrument. The sad thing is, the ones that we always fall in love with are the very expensive ones, and even though that's an amazingly great price, when you don't have it, you don't have it. I really hope you find some way to get it or maybe some cash windfall will land in your lap!