UGH.....I just have to vent to someone!! I am so mad at myself because I am WAY too emotional. I hate that about myself so much.
Any way....I am not really sure why I even do this to myself but I went in for an interview that I knew would be a HUGE promotion if I got it. My hubby and friends were telling me I should go for it even though I knew it was a long shot. The interview went terrible but I got some feed back from the hiring COO that it was good and we needed to meet again. So I go in today for another meeting with him and he gives me the news that he is not selecting me but he really likes me and wants to see if he can help find me another position. I am not sure why I pumped myself up like I was actually going to get the position but I guess I had myself totally convinced because when he said no I know I just looked shocked and emotions over ran me and I started to tear up.
I could not believe it was happening to me...I was actually tearing up in front of someone I did not need to do that with. I could not help it and it was totally embarrassing. I know I have been under a TON of stress lately with things at work, home and a few personal things so I guess it just all hit me at once but seriously I was so embarrassed and so MAD at myself for acting like such a weak little baby.
UGH.....This day just sucks ROYALLY now!
Any way ... I just had to vent thanks for listening.