I hope you are feeling better today. It is so shocking when they are not with us. There are four stages of grieving - SAGA - shock, anger, grieving and acceptance. Unfortunately, all of the parts of SAGA do not fall into a perfect line. My advice for you is to go outside, sit next to her grave and sob. Tell her how you feel, take your son with you when you have cried, so he can cry. Sometimes these sweet animals are here for such a brief time and then like my sweet Sophie, 13 years which didn't seem like it was long enough.
You will probably always question yourself about her treatment, I do but try to look at the time together as a blessing. You saved Timmy was being "kicked to the curb".
Take care and please write until you feel some comfort. Warmly, Deborah |