I know lilly is with the other little angels in heaven looking down. I can empathize with you. I know exactly what you are going through. I lost my little maltese baby after having her home for 6 days. I found her dead in her crate. I was devastated and a month after the breeder gave me this new puppy, my boobah. I still have moments when I think of little "crumb" as I used to call her. Time will make things better, I know you loved this angel as I loved mine. I will have you and your puppy in my prayers.....God bless