[Timmy]

I thought I would never post in this section but here I am. My Lilly passed away last night. I don't know what happened everything was okay. My emotions are ruined right now. Why her? I was trying to make her better. I haven't slept much all night. She passed away sometime around 12:30 - 2:00 I know I couldn't sleep....I went downstairs to sleep on ther air matress with her because we were afraid she would fall off the bed and I dosed off around that time. I woke up really scared and checked on her, I noticed she wasn't moving but her eyes were open so I thought okay she's just tired but then I picked her up and she was limb and cold. I couldn't feel her heart or her breathing. I put her back down ran upstairs to my bedroom and yelled to my fiancee Lilly is dead and then fell to the floor. We buried her in our backyard. She's in heaven now but I'm just feeling so selfish right now because I miss her soooo much already. this morning I was hoping everything was just a dream but its not. My heart hurts so bad...I can't stop crying. Today is my 11 yr old son's b-day and he doesn't even know she's gone because he was asleep. I think Timmy is starting to notice she's not here. OOOOOOHHHHHHH GODDDDDDDDDDDD what am I going to do with myself. I really do thank god I have Timmy and Mimi...they cuddled with me all night. My fiancee is really hurt right now....last night he was saying that we shouldn't had this procedure done.


Lilly mommy & daddy loves you baby! Although you were with us such a short time I gave you all the love I can give and you gave it in return. You were always on my lap and every move I made you were right there. I'm gonna miss that baby. I know you are looking at me from up above, I love you baby. I really wish you were here. I didn't get my morning kisses this morning...remember how many kisses you gave me? Oh God baby girl I miss you!