 I'm feeling really down now
Liily goes for her PDA procedure tomorrow and its just hitting me. I can feel my heart race and my hands shake. I was okay when I was at work because I've been training someone so I really have no time to think but now I'm home and have all the time to think. I know my girl is in God's hand but I can't help to think about the what if's. Omg...I hate feeling like this. It feels like someone is squeezing my heart. I'll be at work tomorrow so hopefully the day goes by really fast. I just told her how she has to be strong for mommy & daddy and told her how much I love her...my son started to cry because thats all I been doing since I got home. I don't know what else to do to stop this feeling. I don't wanna cry...I wanna be strong. The thing that sucks is that my fiancee will drop her off since I have to be at work. Everything sucks right about now...so many feelings are coming back and I'm angry at the same time but I'm not going to touch that subject.
Sorry guys I just needed to vent and I know you guys are great listeners. |