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Originally Posted by newmommy  Im sorry. Im having such a hard time dealin with this. I was hospitalized last year for a while last year due to cysts on my ovaries bursting and filling my pelvic area with infection. I also have endometrisis. I am only 27. I have two boys. Husband is fixed but I always wanted a girl. I was told I needed a hyst. last year but never followed through. My pain is so bad right now. ITs incredible. everytime I menstrate I feel like I am dying. I went to the doctor yesterday and now not only are my ovaries shot to hell, but so is my uterus. So when I menstrate my uterus lining is now off my uterus and in my abdominal cavity and bleeding there when I menstrate.
So im talking like within the month. !!!
I cant stop crying. Im so upset. What if my husband and I get divorced (we've had a lot of marital problems lately). I want a girl so bad. i wanna be pregnant again. I wanna nurse again. but the realty of it is I never will be able to again.
Im not dealing with this very well at all. |
You don't need to apologize, everyone deals with it in her own way. I can relate to your feelings of wanting another child, I did also at the time and we had just gotten to the place financially when it would be possible. It wasn't easy decision but I had a 4 year old who deserved to have a mom who would be an active part of her life, and lying in bed feeling like I was dying wasn't getting it. I don't regret the decision because it has enabled me to live an active life. You are in my thoughts and prayers.