[Judy in Waco]

Originally Posted by newmommy

Im sorry. Im having such a hard time dealin with this. I was hospitalized last year for a while last year due to cysts on my ovaries bursting and filling my pelvic area with infection. I also have endometrisis. I am only 27. I have two boys. Husband is fixed but I always wanted a girl. I was told I needed a hyst. last year but never followed through. My pain is so bad right now. ITs incredible. everytime I menstrate I feel like I am dying. I went to the doctor yesterday and now not only are my ovaries shot to hell, but so is my uterus. So when I menstrate my uterus lining is now off my uterus and in my abdominal cavity and bleeding there when I menstrate.
So im talking like within the month. !!!

I cant stop crying. Im so upset. What if my husband and I get divorced (we've had a lot of marital problems lately). I want a girl so bad. i wanna be pregnant again. I wanna nurse again. but the realty of it is I never will be able to again.

Im not dealing with this very well at all.

Awww hun. I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. Please go to the HysterSisters site as well as getting support here. I learned so much about the process, questions to ask, what to expect, etc... Your feelings are very normal,

I know what you mean about wanting a little girl. I have two boys and no girls. I have decided that when I think I'm ready, I might adopt a little girl who needs a good home. There are so many children in foster care that it saddens me. I know it can never replace holding and nursing that baby, but it can be inspiring. I also spoil my little niece to death! LOL Her mom loves me for that!! (Sarcastic here )

I think you'll be amazed by how much you are missing in your life. It almost sounds like a medical emergency. Is it? If it must be done... consider this...your two boys! They really need you.

Yes, I've gained some weight, but I believe that's mostly my fault. My metabolism is slowing down with age, and I need to get up and move more often (and NOT to the fridge!)

Speaking of divorce...that wasn't a problem for me!! With my hormones back on track (with meds)...my interest in bedroom matters, well, let's just say "bring it on!"