Dave..
My heart and prayers go out to you. I am crying, and my heart is hurting as I read this.
What a great Yorkie Dad you are! You gave Cody the best life a dog can have, even with special needs. Most people 'turn in' their SN dogs...but you didn't. You loved Cody, and you treated him like a King.
I have never had a baby PTS, but I have had a death, and had to give one up. The surrender was the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. It has gotten easier, and much better today when I got an update, but I miss Rascal so much!!
I am so glad you are going on vacation. I think it will do you a world of good to get away, and maybe, just maybe, you will begin to remember Cody without the pain. It does get better, I promise. One Day At a Time.
Our babies bring so much love and joy into our lives. We rely on them so much, instead of them relying on us. When they're gone, it's like a hole has been left in our hearts, and our lives. For some, it's like losing a child, or a parent.
Eventually, we begin to remember with smiles. I hope this time is coming for you Dave. Cody wouldn't want you to grieve, or second guess yourself. You did the only thing you could do for him...end his suffering.
Good luck, Dave. Please keep us posted, especially if you decide to get a new baby. I know that thinking about that now is hard. When I gave Ras up, I said, 'Never again. I can't do this..ever.' But, the next day I was thinking about it...now I'm actively searching. Your time will come, too. Maybe not as quickly as others, but it will.
Take Care...
Melena |