[jp4m2]

I am so sorry your going through so much, you have a lot to handle...it sounds like you are the only responsible car taker of everyone around you....that alone will wear on you....this situation has to be so over whelming mentally & emotionally for you... then add on the hurt feelings of not feeling appreciated for all the sacrifices your willing to go through for everyone else's sake ....at least you will look back on this phase of your life & you can feel proud that you where there for the people you loved & cared about when they needed you the most......right now just focus on what you honestly feel is the right & proper thing to do...you don't have to satisfy any one else w/ any justifications or explanations....

no matter what you do in life , there will ALWAYS be people around you who will not agree w/ your decisions...sadly, there is no life w/o some pain...you do the best you can w/ what you have, that's all you can do....keep working for that dream...when you have a goal to focus on it gives you a sense of self worth & hope for a better future for yourself....you sound like a very responsible & caring young woman, take some time for your self once in a while to re energize ... good luck w/ your studies & bless you.....