[DENISE517]

Well, I finally had to tell Lauryn about Maddie. She kept talking about her missing, etc. and I just felt so bad, I couldn't hide it any longer. She is soon to be 14 and I guess maybe I should have told her about it in the beginning, but it was soooo difficult for me to deal with, I wasn't sure how she would handle it all.

I told her about the college kid and what he had done, and that he burried Maddie in his parents back yard........

She was so sad to think he didn't bring her to us. We've decided to bury Maddies favorite toys, her bone from Des that says Maddie and her doggie bowl in our back yard. We know its not her, but we will always feel like a part of her is there cause these were her favorites. I'm gonna bring home the cards from work cause she wants to read them. I'm glad I told her now, as hard as it was and as hard as it is on her, maybe she can begin to heal. Plus my almost 3 year old kept bring up about Maddie dying (over heard me on the phone) and I was afraid she' say it in front of Lauryn. Now I can show my emotions without having to run and hide.

The bad thing, is I feel like I'm reliving it all over again. Please pray for Lauryn. She is just the best kid and didnt deserve to have this happen. I think she too want to get another Yorkie in time to help heal our heart, but NEVER to replace our little darling Maddie. She was our best friend ever. We will miss heR crazy bark, her sweet kisses, and her ALWAYS ALWAYS wanting to be held. SHE WAS THE BEST EVER!!!!!

Maddie will be miss sooooo much and its so hard to deal with, but I know Maddie is in heaven now, chasing bunnies, and living the high life. God can give her sometime I couldn't...... protection.

Dear Maddie......WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!