[RoxyJosMom]

I am truely sorry for the pain you are going thru right now. I,too, lost the best thing that ever happened to me, my best friend, my husband, very unexpectedly in Dec. of 2005. It was a few days before xmas and our youngest dtr's 17th b-day(Dec. 25) when I got the call. He had been away since before Thanksgiving building his son's house and was due home in 2 days. I knew I was a basket case, but I had no idea how bad I was until 2 days ago when I was throwing away some old bills and I found an insurance check I never cashed. Considering how we are struggling now, I think it is just one more way he has helped us thru the past year and a half. I know how lonely and hurt you are and everytime you think you have control, some stupid little thing hits you with a memory so powerful you just lose it. My heart is breaking for you right now, and I am crying for you, myself, Carol, and any other members who have lost spouses. Losing a spouse means losing the person who would be helping you thru your grief. That's what makes it so hard. Please, feel free to PM me if you want to talk. I have met some wonderful people here who have helped me more than they realized by just listening and being there. Just know that we are all here for you. That is a beautiful picture, I know you will treasure it always.
God Bless.
Sandy