My heart breaks for you. When Sophie passes I though I would go insane. I felt so bad I couldn't cope. She went suddenly with no warning. For a few days I couldn't touch anything that was hers. At first I wanted to box everything up and keep it near me. I could not stop crying, seeing her, hearing her, calling for her.
The pain in immense but it does get better.
I found closure in taking her things to the shelter, all but her collar. When I saw those dogs at the shelter I knew I had done the right thing. Sophie was such a sharing dog, she would bring her little duck to me whenever I wasn't feeling good. Those doggies needed things - especially love, and she had everything while she was here.
They let me pass the toys out, and let me tell you, it did my heart good to see them being played with and enjoyed.
Find peace in whatever way you can and don't feel 'abnormal' about the way you handle the grieving process for your baby.
Windy and Lida Rose |