[mizzwanned]

We were at my dad's for father's day and everything was fine. After everyone had left my stepmother was holding London, she was sitting in a chair and London was on her lap. She must have jumped off cause the next thing I hear is London hit the concrete hard. I went crazy. My brother's gf told me that my face went white and I kept saying "she's dead, omg she's dead" I seriously didn't know what to do. She looked dead on the ground. I was just thinking "is this it? I failed her as a mommy" I felt horrible. And i am such a bad mommy cause I couldn't even look at her. That's how panicked i was. My stepmother picked her up right away and rubbed her and said it was ok. She was fine just a little out of it. When i saw her on the ground she looked like she was having a seizure, but i think it was just cause she was on her back and she was trying to turn around and get back on her feet. And she looked so lifeless. I told my stepmom she needs sugar right away and we gave her honey. She was instantly herself and running around. Then I gave her chicken. That made her happy. But omg you don't know what I went though. I was seriously losing it!!! London is such a trooper! I felt sooo horrible