Yep, I am! If Lily is being quiet and chewing a bone, I'll go nuts and run around looking for her. She looks at me like, 'what's up, am I missing something?' But last night was really bad, I wouldn't let her down. I also have that bad feeling of having to post some horrible news. I am wondering if I will ever be comfortable and at ease again when she isn't sitting on top of me. These losses sure woke me up!
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