I want to thank everyone for your awesome support. I really needed it .
I just can't stop crying !!!! I took today off - I just needed some time.
Here is where I 1st posted about my baby
http://www.yorkietalk.com/forums/showthread.php?t=81413
I can't beleive he's gone. I truley thought I was going to make him better, I really did. He wasn't suposed to go.
I've never experienced death like this. Never have I had something die in my arms. It was truley devestating and there's no way to describe it. I still can't beleive this all happened.
We were at the bday party , came home, Simon was fine, I set him outside to go potty and he did, he pooped and peed. Then I let the dogs out the back. Walked back and looked out the front door and laughed and said "Simon - what are you doing way out there" - he had crawled father out in the yard then normal. When I walked up to him, I said "Simon" and his mouth was open and his tounge was out and he was like panting and gasping. He was fine 5 minutes before that. I picked him up and held him there in the middle of the yard on the grass in my lap, until it happened.
It just seems like a nightmare. I love him so much.