I am soo sorry about your loss. I don't like coming to this section either. Before Summer died I never came here and I still don't unless I see someones post like yours. When I read your post it made tears come to my eyes I know exactly how you are feeling. It made all the feeling from that horrible day come back to me. I held Summer for like probably 3 hours after she died maybe even longer. When I finally had the courage do stop holding her I could look at her anymore it hurt sooo bad. We buried her that same night. It was the worst day of my life. It has been 3 months since her death and it is true time heals your pain. A day doesn't go by that I don't think about her and I still get upset. I know that she is a better place and that we will meet again just like you and your baby will. My thought and prayers are with you. *hugs* I am soo very sorry.