[Breny]

I never ever dreamed I'd ever be posting here. I never really visit here, and I'm sorry but its such a sad place to be and it hurts to read others pain.

But yet tonight, here I am now.

It hurts, and its so hard to write this, its to fresh but I don't know what else to do? I don't know what to do with my feelings right now.

I'm posting here even though Simon is not a Yorkie however I lost my best friend tonight. He died, in my arms. I never ever had anyuthing this devestating happen to me and I just don't know how to deal with it. I seen his last breath and I'll never forget his eyes.

I held him in my arms for at least 45 minutes after he was gone cuz I couldn't let go. Taking him out of arms meant he was gone. Oh my god I just don't even know how to deal with losing him.

One minute your having a good weekend and the next, its your worst. Life changes so fast.

I'm sorry if I'm not making sense as this just happened tonight, but I needed to post becasue I don't quite know how to deal with this all. I thought by taking care of him that things would get better. But now he's gone.