awwww I feel for you so much! I lost a baby almost 2 years ago, I remember how sad I felt for sooo sooo long! I got 2 new boys about 2 months after my pup passed and I still missed my baby! you will eventually remember the fun times and be able to look back with happiness, but it takes awhile, like everything else in life! Im sorry you are in so much pain! As someone who can relate to losing a pup (he was not quite 5 months when he passed), I feel your pain. I have my boys urn on my hutch in my dining room, I don't care what anyone thinks about that. I need to see his pic, it helps to remind me how grateful I am to have my boys now, even on 'bad days'
(((HUGS))) to you!