Girl you have us here, there is a lot of wisdom in here, I will be praying for you ok, maybe he is not the one for you, and believe when the one for you come oh boy, I have been maried for 13years and get better and better when I look back I really can't belive it I wasted my time, money, on him, that his loss not yours, you need someone that value your love, love you the way you are, and build your self worth, like mine is, he always make me feel the most beautiful woman in the whole world, even with out make-up