Oh My...I just read this thread and I am so so sorry for your loss of little Zach. This has to be such a deep hurt. I am so glad you and your wife were able to get away and hope this hasn't come between you two. Each day will get a little better and you will always hold a special spot in your heart for Zach that nothing can ever fill but his special memories. You sound like such a compassionate and caring person that has so much love to give. Peace and acceptance will come, I promise. I hope you can share your love someday with another furbaby. There is one waiting out there that needs you and would be so lucky and blessed to share his life with you...Until then..time..time for you, so you can heal...