[LoveMyGirlz]

Originally Posted by Allan

Hello everyone, i just got back from my parents and burying Zackie. I got there around 7:15 and dug his grave in the corner of their backyard. It is a really peaceful area. the guy came with the casket about 30 minutes later. He gave it to me and I carried Zackie to the backyard. I asked if i could look at Zack and he said he was ok to look at. After the guy left with his wife, it was just me and my parents. i opened the casket and started to cry (as did my mother). I asked my parents if they could leave me alone wiht Zack for awhile, which they did. I pet his head and his body and spoke to him for about 20 minutes. I told him how much I loved him, how much i missed him, that i would never forget him, that he was my best friend, and how sorry i was for what happened. i told him that i'd always love him and how hard this is on me. lastly, i said goodbye. i was pouring tears the entire time. Finally, i knew it was time so i had my parents come back out and i pet zackie's head one last time, and sealed his casket. We put him in the ground and put dirt on him. Finally, i put a large rock for a tombstone, until i can get him a proper one.

Anyway, that was my final goodbye to my best friend. I will love him and miss him forever. i hope that this gets easier over time. i have finally started eating again, at least.

-Allan

Good grief I am bawling. I am just so sad for you and I know tonight was one of the hardest things you've had to do. It sounds like you gave little Zackie and wonderful place to rest. I want to say more but I literally cannot see through the tears....My deepest sympathies and prayers to you Allan-
Big hugs~Trina