Thanks again for all the kind words. It is not really getting any easier for me. Knowing that we could have had 15 more years together absolutely kills me. Each time I go to the living room and see Zack's area (where his bed and toys and food were kept), makes me break down and cry. I am burying Zackie tonight - I decided on doing it in my parent's backyard so that he will never be alone. My parent's will be there for him and I can visit him to talk. Writing this now is bringing tears to my eyes and I don't know how I will even be able to cope tonight.
I miss him so much. |