It sounds to me like ur doing your best,so dont be so hard on yourself!I was sooooooooo happy when the weather broke,so Max could start going outside.Because for some reason I could never pee-pee pad train him,he just wouldnt do it consistantly.I got him in Lake Mary Florida when he was about 3mos old, he was already trained to go outside.When we got back home to Detroit it was to cold for him to go outside,so we had lots of mistakes.Now Im just as happy as can be,totally outside trained!