[Papi]

Originally Posted by michiko

I am sorry for your loss... My girl is a little over 1 year old. Every time I read something like this, I get started worrying really bad. I cannot imagine how much pain it must have been for you. But she is in peace now and I am sure she wishes you all the happiness.

I feel really blessed to be able to have Haruka. Having a yorkie is such a wonderful gift. Then I also had to prepare myself to invite her to my life. I feel so grateful that I really made it to have her. I have always wanted a yorkie. When I was depressed, being alone in this country, facing culture shocks every day and not being able to tell anyone as an immigrant, I didn't have Haruka. But I found a way to cope somehow. I had to find ways.. When I determined to get a yorkie, I didn't know how long it would take me to be actually ready environmentally and also FINANCIALLY. I waited for one year. I visited yorkie meet-up, went to all the dog parks and pet shops to meet different dogs.

So I am not sure what your plan is. (I am sorry that I haven't read all the threads) But I do hope that you find your healthy ways to cope from this pain. You are a great writer!! It sounded to me that this thread was one of the ways for you to cope. One day when you are ready, you may get a yorkie and also keep the wonderful memories of Kassie.

Peace and Love,

Michiko

Hello Michiko ,

First may I apologize to you for such a late response, and thank you for your consoling, thoughtful words, I do appreciate it very much.

Michiko, please don't be overly worried, make yourself sick, or stressed out over something so soon in Haruka's young years, as you said just over a year, yes, something to think about of course, but I'm sure you, and precious Haruka's will see many wonderful year's togeather, my biggest concern is the kidney disease, I think if I had taken Kassie for more than the standard or recommended time for blood test, I think it's every 6 months or a year, I may have caught it sooner, and we wouldn't be having this conversation now, if had it to do all over again, I would have taken her at the least, every 3 months for a kidney test.

Machiko, I see you had a very difficult time as an immigrant, a mountain so to speak to climb, overcome, the language, the culture, yet you perservered, I sincerely applaud and commend you for your fortitude, for conquering such aewsome odds, as they may have to you when you began on your journey, you have to be proud of yourself, as I'm sure your family and friends are, and look at the reward, the fullfilment of your dream, owning a Yorkie did come true. not just any Yorkie, you found Haruka, or did she find you ? I can't tell you how very happy I am for you, you worked so hard, and are so deserving of the fruits of your labor, I have no doubt you and Haruka will have many long years to share your love for one another, have many joyous, happy and fun filled years to share togeather, I pray so.

It sounded to me that this thread was one of the ways for you to cope.

Without a doubt, you hit the nail on the head, I don't know how I would have managed without the YorkieTalk Community, so very many friends who have listened to some of my rants, who have shared so much of their own grief, and more than anything else have supported, encouraged me in way's I can't put into words, yes, the friends, as you, have helped me to cope, and for that I'll be forever grateful.

A side thought if I may, saw all the beautiful pics of Haruka in your blog, she is adorable, and the truth be told, I think my Kassie's face looked very much like her's, and I think your sewing is fine, I can't do that.

My thank's and gratitude Machiko for your support, and encouarging expressions, you truly have a Yorkie heart, a special un-selfish love charactoristic of Yorkie lover's, that is a true statment.

Thank you very, very much.

Papi