[michiko]

I am sorry for your loss... My girl is a little over 1 year old. Every time I read something like this, I get started worrying really bad. I cannot imagine how much pain it must have been for you. But she is in peace now and I am sure she wishes you all the happiness.

I feel really blessed to be able to have Haruka. Having a yorkie is such a wonderful gift. Then I also had to prepare myself to invite her to my life. I feel so grateful that I really made it to have her. I have always wanted a yorkie. When I was depressed, being alone in this country, facing culture shocks every day and not being able to tell anyone as an immigrant, I didn't have Haruka. But I found a way to cope somehow. I had to find ways.. When I determined to get a yorkie, I didn't know how long it would take me to be actually ready environmentally and also FINANCIALLY. I waited for one year. I visited yorkie meet-up, went to all the dog parks and pet shops to meet different dogs.

So I am not sure what your plan is. (I am sorry that I haven't read all the threads) But I do hope that you find your healthy ways to cope from this pain. You are a great writer!! It sounded to me that this thread was one of the ways for you to cope. One day when you are ready, you may get a yorkie and also keep the wonderful memories of Kassie.

Peace and Love,

Michiko