I think my hormones must be in flux again. Cause I keep crying over this. Yes, my mother did what was best but right now, if I had her right now, I still wouldn't put her down. She pooped and peed all over herself all the time and I think I got tired of cleaning her up and let her go. I never thot about how she would feel being ripped away from me, the only mother she knew. I have thot of her recently and posted about her but it didn't hit me until tonight how she must have felt, alone and so scared and wondering where her mommy was. OK, I have to quit thinking about this. If I go to bed crying my husband wouldn't understand, must be the hormones. |