You love him and you share a life together, including plans to get married, so I can understand your not wanting to think about ending it. I would give the relationship some serious thought though. He may be wonderful in many ways, but still be controlling. Couple's counseling might be the thing to do so that you can straighten out any big issues before you get married. He may not want to go, but as someone who has been divorced twice, I would say that you have to put love aside for a while and make sure this marriage will work. You really don't want to have children and then split up. If he won't go to counseling, maybe you can go yourself. There's no reason a beautiful young woman should feel ashamed because someone else is making some of her decisions.
You can probably work it out with him, but a good marriage takes enormous effort. Don't ever love is enough to carry you through. Fight for your relationship to work - and not with him.
Good luck. I'm sure you'll be able to straighten this out.
Judy
