I truly believe there are things in life that you never get over -- you just learn how to deal with them. Sometimes, we find healthy ways of coping and these bad things don't taunt us. Sometimes it means burying them deep, deep down in a part of your psyche and NOT dealing with them because that seems to be the less painful option.
The downside of that is that when you open the door to shove in the next bad thing, all of the others tumble out. Sounds like that is what is happening to you right now. So, so sorry to hear about this awful experience that some very cowardly people put you through.
You did the right thing. The right thing is not always the easiest or the most enjoyable. Hopefully, you can draw some sense of relief in knowing that little baby is not suffering anymore and that she had someone who cared enough about her to not only see to that, but to stay with her through it. God bless you for it. |