im so sorry your going through this
ive had to have 3 dogs pts nearly 4, first was my mums dog who i took in after my mum died, trouble was her name but not her nature, she was a gsd was 12 or 13 years old and had cancer in her breast that bursted through the skin.
i called the vet to the house and he put her out of her suffering as i held her head on my lap and i swear she looked up at me as to say thankyou.
not only did i lose her but it felt like i had also lost another part of my mum too.
then my scampi my yorkie of 15 years became ill and couldnt breath, i just knew i was gonna lose him so i got him on video the dat b4 i rang the vets to make THAT appointment, i laid in bed holding him and talking to him all night telling him he could leave mummy and go and see nanny in heaven and i would be fine so to just let go and go to nanny, i had tears in my eyes as i told him.
the next day i was so upset not just cos i knew i was gonna lose him but cos he so hated the vets i just knew he would be scared.
he eat his food looked up at me still having problems breathing and i dont know why but i just had a feeling to go up stairs so i did and told my dad to sit with him, my dad then called to say scampi had fallen on his side and he had gone, i ran down stairs and he was still breathing but had his eyes closed and trying to hold on, he was such a fighter, i know i was sent up stairs cos he wouldnt of gave in if i had been with him cos it would of upset me so much to see him fall.
he held on so i could say goodbye, i held him and asked if he could see nanny and then told him to run to her, just as i said that he was gone.
i was glad i didnt have to take him to the vets.
then there was my yorkie sasha my baby girl, she wasnt like any other dog i had ever met b4 her or after her, she wasnt like a dog at all.
she was my girl, i had her 12 years and then her heart went in to failure, she had a heart attack and died but i gave her mouth to mouth and got her back, and i swear she was different after, she seemed to know something if that makes sence, she looked at me different, i could just say so her ok these are your pills you gotta take them for mummy and she just lent her head forward and took them from my hand and swallowed them, she would never do that in all the years i had her, she seemed like she had been somewhere and wasnt scared.
when she had her heart attack i could feel someone behind me and im sure it was my mum and sasha looked to her side and im sure she saw scampi.
she had another heart attack 2 weeks later and as the vets said there was no more pills she could have i had to take her to the vets to be pts, i held her as she went, she looked up at me with such love in her eyes saying thankyou for letting her go
and a im gonna be back look.
then there was my yorkie annie who was just 6 and who i only had for 9 months but she stole my heart, she was the only dog ever who shared the little traits that sasha had and im sure sasha sent her to me to look after as she was ill and annie also gave me a little bit of sasha back.
annie was very ill for a few months and we were told she had a stroke then told she had a brain tumour, we took her home for one last night and that night a lump on the side of her face burst and the pus filled her lungs and went to her brain so we had to take her to be pts, i held her head and paw as she slipped away.
the vet then told us that he thought that she had had an ear infection that had gone to her brain.
annie hadnt seen this vet b4 but had seen 5 others who all said it wasnt an infection, when we got annie she had ear mites very bad and they had been left by her last owner, the vet said they had prob eaten in to her inner ear then the infection had hit her brain but when the vets looked in her ear the hole had closed over so they couldnt see the infection.
its such a hard thing to do having a dog pts but i just knew when the right time was cos they had let me know and im guessing your little one will too.
its not a horrible thing for them, the vet numbs the leg then puts the needle in and within seconds there pain is over.
maybe if your worried that if you have them pts you will think of things you might of tryed or could of done you should try them now, your vet can give pain meds without doing tests, try them see if they work so at least that way you can be sure you did everything.
if they dont work and they are in pain then you dont need to make the diesion cos your little one has made it for you, there suffering and only you can stop that and they will thankyou for it.