[dalnna]

I'm so sorry. I had to put two dogs down within a year of each other but I was very lucky. I found a vet who was the kindest man. He actually drove to my house at the end of his day so that my girls could have the comfort of being in their own home, on their own bed as they died. I still have a heavy heart when I think about those sweet girls, but maybe it will help you if I pass on what this vet said to me. He said that humans are the only animals that fear death. He said a dog only knows that you are holding him as he goes to sleep. He doesn't know he's going to his death and he feels no fear. He's not scared, only concerned for you, because he senses your sadness. So be sure that it's his time, and it sounds like you've already come to grips with that decision, and then be with him if you can manage it. Tell him what a good baby he is and how much you love him. Let him comfort you as he will surely do as he falls asleep. Then you can cry. My heart is breaking for you.