depression:how do you know your bad. I'm goin to go to counceling. I'm finding nothing really makes me happy. I'm lonely even with my husband in the room. I'm finding I'm buying things to get that quick fix. to find I really dina want it. or need it. I'm focussed about finding a dog just to love a week ago I bought one very foolishly online. it has no shots/womring or vet care and will cost me $250. for it to be brought too me four hours away. when I really want a yorkie or a beagle. I found myself arguing with the AC about the puppy they took from me. saying may be it can be trained not to bite. when people terriffed it. finding myself trying to get my husband's dog to play with me. when it rather be with my husband. {I'm going to keep trying.}
I'm going thru chemo. and I'm scared to death of death. and I see myself as ugly. and I'm lonely. I miss J. J would sit listen to me complain and dina care I was throwing up. dina care if anything but he loved me and I was his everything I hope cause he ws mine.
taking a break from here. I'm finding myself hating me for crying about people having babies or getting a new bab puppy. I'm still trying to get the beagle here. just going to try to get better.
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