Originally Posted by Breny (Post 1960982)

to myself to sort this all out. I couldn't log onto YT because I didn't know what and how to say this.

The what if's, the feeling of blame on me, wishing I could have done something. But the bottom line is no matter what...it just sucks. :(

I guess how the old saying goes "oh it will never happen to me" well it has and it will.

Meiah did have her BABIES, yes, the singleton turned out to be a litter of two.

I lost them both :(

The first one was pretty big. Meiah is normally about 4 3/4 lbs. This baby was almost 6 oz. Her last pups have been 4 oz. She came breach. But her head was stuck in the canal. The sak broke as well. I was running out of time and had to pull the pup (it was stuck hard) but it was too late.
Devistated me. Went out side to recoup, came back in within minutes, and she had delivered another. This was a boy....real tiny....only 2 3/4 oz.

He was gasping and I worked on him and worked on him. Then upon inspection in his mouth, he had a cleft pallet. A pretty good one that ran all the way from his hard pallet thru to his soft pallet. If I could have got him going I would have doen ANYTHING to keep keep him alive, just like a did my Chi Tia, but I lost him :(

I know we go into this expecting the unexpected but I didn't expect this. My poor Meiah.

I bond with the babies before they are born, talking with them, feeling them...and then this.

This is my first time losing a pup, let alone the whole litter. I've told myself going into this that it would be a possibility, but didn't expect it to hit me so hard.

Breeding is not to be taken likely. I hope anyone thinking about breeding really does their homework. But all the books you read, all the videos you watch, can never really prepare you for what can happen, until your right there, living it.

I want to thank Deb (tiggerr3692) for her suport and care.

I just wanted to let everyone know what happened and why I had to take some time for me and Meiah.

Thanks for all your prayers.